First Teacher (2011)

Truths given from inception,
Taken for granted,
And relied upon.
As a child young,
I took these words,
And built my world on them.
Never thought to second guess,
A need never arose.
In my eyes you were a god,
You were my home,
You were my home.

Alliteration in A Minor (2011)

Amazingly arisen the sleeping words asunder
Aloof in their now awakening arousal,
Absent in sorrow ailment and anger,
A symphony aging aging aging away.

Dreaming of Reality (2011)

I have seen her, angelic, innocence to taste,

Worn, torn, born again and denied by fate,

A touch and she fades, fading to dusk,

Surreal--her scent drifting now to the wind.

I question the dream, the reality of such,

Believing not in the things that I feel,

Whispering in my ear, reality decieves,

The dream in the waking, I wake to the dream.

Sunday Waiting (2011)

Oh Sunday,
Sunday, don't you wait up for me,
Friday's long gone and today's the last I'll ever see,
That sun's long since gone down, and ain't nobody callin' for me,
Nobody miss me when I'm gone, an' nobody to grieve,
The shadows creepin' down that wall,
Callin' out to me,
Callin' in a voice now, somethin' of your dreams,
That switch they'll throw when the light's gone,
A last spectacle for all to see,
Oh Sunday,
Sunday don't you watch the road for me,
Friday's long gone and this room's the last I'll ever see.

Born For Leavin' (2011)

Goodbye she said
Though I'd much rather you stayed,
But I know you hear it,
Even though I can't,
That open road is calling you home...

And I said

"Maybe one day I'll see you there
Somewhere in the stars above
But I wasn't born for anywhere
But that open road"

Goodbye she said,
You're a gypsy soul
In a world with no place for you,
Lord knows you're never gonna change,
Though I wish you would...

And I said

"Maybe one day I'll see you there
Somewhere in the stars above
But I wasn't born for anywhere
But that open road"

And I've been there before
A time or two or more
I'm a lover but a leaver
On the road again

And I'll say
"Maybe one day I'll see you there
Somewhere in the stars above
But I wasn't' born for anywhere
But that open road
Oh Lord knows,
I was born married
To that open road."

The Ruins of Paradise (2011)

The ashes burn red
as the skies turn'd crimson,
and the tears of the children are alive.

The fairy tales have
all long since died,
and to dream has long become contrived.

Beauty lies in ruins below
as Beast stands ever more,
and  to love is to forever lose your life.

The ashes burn red
as the skies turn'd crimson,
and the ocean bleeds so pure into the sky.

Weary Words The Rose Spoke (2011)

Weary words spoke too oft
and fights we fought to lost,
The things we were in dreams
Now never more may be.
The future brought death
And death it brought home
I lay my love to wake.

Ne'ermore I regret the past,
Ne'ermore choose I to mourn,
Weary rose the rose I plucked,
Your last petal has wilted,
Ne'ermore the past is gone,
The past is gone now,
Weary rose the rose I plucked,
Your last petal has wilted...

I lay you down
down to sleep,
and sleep I hope you do,
for pain it comes
with a smile,
a smile shown for you.


Ne'ermore I regret the past,
Ne'ermore choose I to mourn,
Weary rose the rose I plucked,
Your last petal has wilted,
Ne'ermore the past is gone,
The past is gone now,
Weary rose the rose I plucked,
Your last petal has wilted...

Of Eve and Adam (2011)

You are the Eve to my Adam,
And this world is our Eden,
Free of hatred, envy, and greed,
A world sculpted by our hands of God.
Peace abounds in absence of strife,
Guilty pleasured war no more,
Eve, Eve, dearest Eve,
Let's build their world like ours,
Forever, forever, forevermore free.

Long Lonely Road (2011)

I had the wind on my back and the road before me,
          Memories of me and you
          all left at home,
Oh God help me,
         and keep my heart true,
It's been a long lonely road
        without you.
Friends,
       now and then they'd call,
       I'd tell 'em some words,
       then they'd be gone,
Oh it's been a long and lonely road
without you.

Milady, I Am The Beast (2011)

I am a sinner among saints, a beast in recluse,
Forever bound to these unkind halls,
This accursed labyrinth of my mind!

I've watched the world from my tinted window,
And seen it as the angels must see,
But the grounds of my castle... are as far as I dare go.

I long for music, and I long for art!
I long for trust, and I long for love...
I long for these and more, but my face forbids me all...

Oh dark, my friend and only companion,
How well you've kept me all these years...
The world has never seen my pain,
And my tears it has never heard,
But still... Still it has buried the blade in my soul!

I've felt the pain of cold, the tears of loneliness...
I've longed for warmth that only a woman can bring...
Somewhere in the world my rose surely stands,
But can I ever see beyond the walls that now confine me?

Whispering Wind (2011)

The wind whispers on the trees,
Somewhere in the darkness
I know you're listening too...
The voices audible,
Nearly tangible,
My ears long to grasp their words
Hoping for a glimmer of insight
Of wisdom from the trees...
Do you think somehow
If we both closed our eyes,
We'd find more to these whispers,
These winds beneath the willow,
These songs before the storm?
Or maybe there's a calling,
Somewhere just out of reach
A beckoning only our souls can hear,
A banshee calling us home...

The Dream of Heaven That Was Never To Be (2011) (Modified 2012)

The cold hatred of your lips on mine,
I feel the venom slip from your tongue.
The lies and the love,
The promises that you made,
Know that I shall take them all to the veil.

Heaven was a dream,
A lie that you built,
A perfect rose planted on an open grave,
And it pains me to say what was always the truth,
But the truth weighs heavy as the dirt's shoveled down.


The paradise we made now lies in ashes,
Heaven has burned and hell reclaims,
And if you could see it I know you would smile,
But you'll never see,
My world exists free of you.


And though I did dream this dream in a dream,
In life unlived your memory forever will burn,
Six feet down now I look towards the sky,
My eyes closed to heaven your vision will burn,
The memory of you will lay fading.

One Hundred Dreams (2011)

I've thought too long--
Too long on the things that I once thought were important...
What was the truth?
The meaning behind why I am who I am?
Who am I?
Why am I?
I reach out--
Can anyone really hear me?
Does anyone really care?
I'm so very tired...
I want to sleep--
Sleep away the past,
And maybe the pain with it...
I want to sleep--
One hundred years of sleep,
One hundred tears today,
One hundred years of sleep--
And nothing will have changed,
Today is tomorrow--
Tomorrow is yesterday come again...
One hundred years passing by,
The future is a lie,
The past on my mind,
In the present I lie,
One hundred years to sleep,
One hundred years to dream.

No More (2011)

I turn my back,
My gaze long since gone,
My wings are strong--
But I will not fly,
You see,
The sky holds no glory,
The wind no thrill,
I clip my wings,
And fly no more.

I turn my back,
My eyes are clouded over,
My arms are strong--
But I will not fight,
You see,
The pain holds no glory,
The battle no thrill,
I lower my arms to my side,
And fight no more.

I turn my back,
My voice is now silent,
My legs are strong--
But I will not run,
You see,
The road holds no glory,
The mountain no thrill,
I drop my knees to the ground,
And run no more.

I turn my back,
My eyes are now closed tight,
My heart is strong--
But I will not love,
You see,
I loved and lost and loved again,
I lost it all and loved some more,
I lost my love,
I lost my vision,
Fade to black,
To black and--
Love I let go.

My Friend, My Friend, How Faithful Are Thee! (2011)

Delirium oh delirium, sweet friend of mine,


I had thought you gone but here you stayed,

Waiting not for night but for me,


Delirium my dear friend, my shadow,



How you stayed evermore for me.

A Message Found Wanting (2011)

                                             You see me by the light of my rose,      
                                         Angel don't you feel me?            
                                  My wings are velvet lust
                          -broken beat and torn,
                     Somehow renewed for you daily.
                  Hell hath no fury  
                No fury  
             No sadness  
          No pain
       No pain
    Like the absence of you
  Of you from my mind.

My body aches
My flesh it trembles,
Love,
Won't you touch me?

  Your freedom from my prison,
         in every breath we share...
                                                             
                                                               bite me
                                              kiss me
                                                                             taste me
                                                                                                tease me,
             
                                        Free
                                                     me
                                                                 forever
                                                                                      more.

To Write Love on Her Arms (2011)

To write love on her arms,

Oh what she wouldn’t give,

To feel his touch once more,

To know there was more than the cold.



To carve lust on her thigh,

The gift she once gave,

He touched her and vanished,

Dear love, her love, the ghost.



To burn crosses on her lips,

A smile that she would give,

For each time his touched there,

So he’d know she cared.



To write love on her arms,

Oh what she wouldn’t give,

To feel his touch once more,

Before she felt the cold.

Her Kiss (2011)

"Does the darkness know your name"
She whispered
To me
"Do you know why you came?"

There's a shadow at the door,
Memories knocking in earnest
but I don't answer,
"Why?"
She asks of me.

"Did that bottle bring you home..."
She asks, lips to my neck
My breath escapes
She breathes,
I stand to fall.

Am I afraid,
No,
Not afraid I say,
No,
No.

"Does the darkness know your pain..."
She beckons
Eyes to meet mine,
Oh sweet burning eyes,
Can they forgive me?

"Your illusion..."
She kisses
I bleed
"Is it all that you can see..."
All that I can see...
Is me...

"Is it lonely where you are..."
She looks to my skin
She ponders
"Are you all alone..."

She kisses again
I am dreaming
"What do you see..."
I close my eyes
I see...

I Was A Young Man Once (2011)

I was a young man once,
          lacking in wit
          but full of wonder...
I saw the world through newborn eyes,
          each experience a mountain,
          a mountain for me to climb.
Each word spoken was a truth to my ears
          my heart was innocent,
          my mind was so free...
I was a young man once,
          though never more shall I be.
          Never more shall I be.

These Words That Must Be Said (2011)

I smile and laugh, though I know I shouldn't,
and each word flows so freely...

Oh friend, friend how I would say to you
the things you must never know...

You're dear as dear can be,
and know me as well as well can see...

And oh, how I love you.



Oh how I love you...

Moonlight in C Minor (2011)

A memory fading, the subtle mnemonic in C minor leaves a numbness on my lips,
Where the delicacy of flesh is taken, a stolen breath fleeing...
Forthwith a gift conferred, bequeathed, left for you,
My body and soul aching, aching for your gaze.

Ephemeral sensation, like the loves I have known,
And like my love, my flesh yearns the coming,
A feeling due since moment's conception,
An unbreakable promise.

Moonlight in C Minor graces the string from my fingers,
These same fingers that are want to dance across the cold of your flesh,
Carving their love in red against white,
The only permanence in pain.

Hitherto that moment when the nights will be the past,
Innumerable passing by as I lay forlorn and lost,
Sanguine I shall lay, fulfilled temptation of life drawn,
Sanguine I shall lay, sanguine I shall lay.

Deafening Silence (2011)

They said God cried when he saw their blood,
Ten thousand young,
All lay dead in the name of the Son,
Ten thousand and one.

And though each one had a face,
Not one had a name,
Only a number,
Only a number.

And on that day I cried with God,
Ten thousand lay under the sun.

An endless sea of faces,
Eyes burned red,
Voices burned dry,
Heavenward they cried.

And with a final thunderclap,
A final deafening roar,
We bore witness to the sound of Silence.

Fate (2009)

He has a face that no one knows,
Underneath his hat and coat,
And a voice with naught to say,
For he has never seen the light of day.

He has held both rulers and slaves,
And taken both into the grave.

Some were willing,
Some are young.
Some for even the angels sung.

Under watch of the moon,
He has taken many to their tomb.

By their hands,
By their souls,
By the hearts the lovers sold.
By the raven,
By the cross,
For the never ending loss.

Born from life
And lived in death,
The man in black has never left.

Depart (2009)

I lay two coins on his eyes
as I send him into the night
with grace and prayers to guard the soul.
And two more coins, fare for the boat,
with Heaven or Hell at the end,
his final journey does begin.

Green Collar (Revised, original 2009)

Like the sands,
life is fleeting,
grains fall to the ground.
A soldier fallen,
mourned by love,
marching to an unheard sound.

He takes your stand.
You take his life,
and send him home with a flag.
Your banner waves,
his child sees
another body in a bag.

The lies of war,
you feed them well,
"Raise your hands into the sky!"
Civilian's gone,
a soldier born,
and with his breath a child dies.

"Take your hammer,
take your hoe,
lay them down for the gun.
Fight for freedom,
then for honor,
Fight until the war is done."

Wall of Bones (2010)

An endless wall,
Built on broken promises,
Held together by tears
Shed from every lonely soul.

It stands filled
with the blood,
sweat,
and tears
of all fallen men.

Echoing (2007)

Still the hand on my heart,
Steal its warmth and tear it apart,
Stop the beating,
Stop the sound,
Kiss my eyes and lay me down,
Am I dreaming,
Now awake,
Do I stand at Heaven's gate,
With a hole,
In my chest,
Forever echoing...

First Sin (revised, original 2010)

What twisted desire was it that gave birth to first sin, the death of your brother?
Was it the serpent below,
lust,
or product, product of your greed?

What I ask then, drove you to slay another,
slay your brother?

The earth cries,
though not of thirst does it cry!

The ground lay saturated, as lay he,
your brother, your brother, how now he bleeds!

He is dead, dead, in death lies he,
and living you stand soiled, your hand, your hand.

A plague I call, a plague upon your sons,
and from their hands a curse laid upon the soil!

The earth will be your home now, your unforgiving adultered,
and fear forever it will know of you, a monster alone you shall be!

Flee! Flee now from my sight!
My eyes can behold no such abomination as thee, take flight!

Wander the earth forever more, my son never more,
your kin found now alone, alone in blight!

 

 

 

 

I Saw Your Picture Today (2010)

I saw your picture today,
and oh, how I thought.

I saw your picture today,
oh, how hard it was I thought.

Once, I would have reminisced,
once, I would have cried,
upon that that I would have reminisced,
a river of tears would I have cried.

I saw your picture once, once upon a time,
and upon that time, did I not die?

I saw your picture today among the times,
And with this time, I did not die.

But I saw your picture yesterday,
and how, how it seems the river ran.

When I saw your picture yesterday,
my river, it did dry at last.

I saw your picture today,
what thoughts came to my mind?

I closed my eyes if only to remember,
and now, now I have forgotten your name.

The Hollow (2011) (Modified 2012)

I dreamt somewhere upon a cliff,
looking outward to the seas to see,
oceans full, full to the brim,
devoid of water they were.

They foamed with blood,
a broth of crimson,
endlessly did the tide return,
the waves naught but tears.

The soldiers fought,
lived loved and died;
and though the wars had ended,
the truths they held were lies

I dreamt somewhere upon a cliff,
looking outward to the seas to see,
devoid of water the blood came home,
tears raining,
perpetually raining from the sky.

The Morning Rose (2010)

Your sweet perfection,
a red rose covered in morning dew;
delicate
on my lips.

Your nectar fuels my desire,
longing,
lusting,
wanting,
and needing.

Your arch,
your every turn;
perfection is exemplified by your curve.

Silk against my cheek,
you are velvet on my lips.

I grow drunk on your gift.

The immersion intoxicates.

My eyes are closed.

...Bliss.